Recently, Bollywood super star Aamir Khan’s daughter Ira Khan opens up on her mental health. Now, filmmaker Anurag Kashyap’s daughter Aaliyah Kashyap has now talked about dealing with anxiety and depression. The star kid released a new YouTube video on her channel where she opened up about her recent anxiety attack and her panic disorder diagnosis. She said that while she has been dealing with anxiety and depression from her early teenage years, things came to a head in the last few months.
In her YouTube video, Aaliyah Kashyap said that she recently had a major anxiety attack. She said, “I have always dealt with anxiety and depression since I was a teenager, maybe since I was 13-14. I have always dealt with it on and off, but it has never been bad to the point where I couldn’t cope. It has always been easy for me to snap out of it. If I really wanted to snap out of it, I could. It was all in my head, it never bothered me to the point where it was like ruining my life. It wasn’t interfering with my life. Like I would feel depressed and anxious, but I could snap out of it.”
Aaliyah revealed that when she tested positive for Covid-19 last November, she was in quarantine and her mental health deteriorated. “Since then, I just haven’t been able to snap out of it, which is weird for me, because usually, it is so easy for me to just snap out of it. I’ll do a therapy or counselling session and I’ll be fine for months or weeks. But it was really hard for me after November. I was just super low, constantly crying, feeling like there was no purpose to my life, like I didn’t want to exist or do anything. I thought I was a burden on everyone else and all of these negative interrupting thoughts in my head that obviously aren’t true. But that is what it felt like,” she said.
Talking about experiencing an ‘episode’ in December last year, Aaliyah Kashyap, who stays in California, said, “I just completely broke down and I was in the hospital for severe panic attacks… Which is why my parents flew down here because they were worried about me.” She said that her parents stayed with her in the US till early January, and she felt good again. However, towards the end of March, things went downhill again. “I just didn’t get out of bed, I didn’t shower, barely ate,” she said.
On April 10, Aaliyah Kashyap said that she was going about her day normally, when suddenly, she felt very dizzy. She said, “Suddenly, my body became numb, completely numb. My heart started beating really fast. I started sweating. My body started violently trembling. Literally, I was like, ‘I am dying’. It felt like this was it for me and I was going to die. Mind you, I have had panic attacks before but nothing like this, ever. So I didn’t know what I was having was a panic attack and not a heart attack or stroke.”
In the hospital, she was told that she had a severe anxiety attack. “It was like the scariest day and night of my life. I felt so much anxiety, for no reason. Like, nothing triggered it,” she said. She added that the incident triggered more anxiety in her.
She said that she would stay in bed and constantly cry. “I don’t think I have ever cried as much in my life combined as I have in this past week,” she said. And finally, she decided to visit a psychiatrist, who diagnosed her with panic disorder, which is characterised by sudden recurring panic attacks. Aaliyah said that she is feeling better after taking medication for it.